this is going to be my last entry

my lifes fucked up in so many ways ive lost everything ive actually worked so hard for! and over what! well i am in the wrong i feel so guilty and i wish i could take everything back but thats not how this messed up world works!

ive got so much anger and hatred in me atm. nobody understands me and nobody will! so i decided i will try my best to spill everything out on this shitty site.

on friday i lied to the person i loved the most for sum1 i was really close friends with it was the biggest mistake of my life because i regret it so much. now ive lost that person that actually ment the most to me. Im so so sorry for hurting that person but sorry doesnt mean a thing so i dont know what else to do! i want to just cross the road and get hit by a truck? and DIE coz that would put me out of my missery. everything ive worked so hard for thrown down the drain and i dont  think i can get it back!

FUCK LIFE!! who needs it FUCK EVERYONE! i hate you all! except for that one person i really love and care for! i know you wondering why im saying i care for you when i did such  a horrible thing! sorry doesnt mean a thing but its the only thing i have left, but plead for your forgivenes. i hope you find sumwer in your heart to forgive and forget!

Im at work and everyone is pissing me off! especially my shiity boss the fagget fuck!people on msn MSGing me!!! FUCK OFF im at work and i cant reply coz im busy u fagget's do you want me to get fired or something! fucking losers!